but i’m 21.
I thought I was seasoned for summer excitement, rather i’m taking it as a time of luxury. It’s a much better alternative, imo. I’ve been keeping to myself lately, plotting and pampering. I deserved a time with loose obligations, so I served it to myself.
I needed a imaginative intermission, & chile, I received it indeed. My mind has went everywhere in the best way. My personal & creative goals are coming together quite nicely❤️. I’ve learned to relax and let shit happen. Applying a corporate-like grind to non career happenings just leaves me frustrated and tired. Two things I absolutely don’t deal with.
Moving & grinding so fast creates that Taz-effect I’m so very used to. My usually pristine organization was less than ideal in the last couple months so I’m ironing it all out. Nitty gritty commitments on the sly.
I’ve exerted loads of pressure onto myself, and just recently I’ve realized I can relieve that stress as quick as I bat my eyelashes. I’m recognizing the amount of invisible obligations I’ve held myself to. It’s cute to me, really. It’s much crazier to see my patterns change. Loving that concept.
Now I’ve eased up, I’m glowing. Since I’ve stepped back and sat my ass down momentarily I have:
- Revised my long term business plan & highlighted places of improvement
- Decided on new ventures for my boutique.
- Bought a new laptop & new phone (I hate selfies now – camera next)
- Rough drafted my chapbook.
Look out for my summer guide, my advice videos and some dedicated writing pieces.
That’s all I want to touch on for now 😘. I’ll be dipping in and off of the Internet for the rest of the week, catching up. If you see me say hi :).
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Mood: Comfortable – RJ
photo dump after the break.
Mood: Say Somethin’ – Mariah Carey
Do you ever day dream your future? Imagine any and every thing you would like to have or achieve. These thoughts should be kept and revisited. That’s what we finna do.
Make a vision board. An actual piece.
Vision boards withhold energy. The positive energy you use to craft your wishful thinking is maintained in your finished product. You have to want before you achieve, the vision you hold is the first step, give it some power.
The tangibility of a physical board gives dreams an edge. You want these things to eventually materialize, give them a foundation to do so.
All you need:
- Construction Paper/Poster/Board
- Photos, Magazines, Newspapers etc
- Miscellaneous Art Supplies
- Dreams ❤️
You’re ready to fabricate.
Though I know the solstice hasn’t hit, heat is always time for trouble. Summer is everything to me, it’s my absolute favorite time of year. I am the summer baby, baby. Don’t let my September birth throw you off. This is my last run as a babygirl, my last three months before I turn twenty-one. I feel in my heart 21 is a large age for me. I’m preparing myself for the shit I’m about to get into.
Money. Glam. Lust.
I’m self-employed on my own schedule, I have a thorough break from college life. For now, my time is unlimited, I want to focus on the last of me I need to get done. I’ve been so work focused, with no time to play. Silly girl. Luckily, the sunshine will parade & play along with me this time around. I have a chance to breathe and let my wild side free.
I’ve been focusing so very much on my education, my careers, my mindset, my mental confidence. I’m proud of how much I’ve learned about myself on my own. After taking my leap of faith and reaping the successes & difficulties, that chapter has been started. I’m ready for the vain segment of my glow up.
Grinding is fruitful, but it’s also consuming. In a few ways, I’ve been neglecting tangible things that make me happy. My hair has been wild, my clothes are starting to bore me, when’s the last time I bought some stilettos? Pitiful. I haven’t treated myself in a while, really in any capacity. That’s most definitely over now. Whatever I desire, I will indulge in. I’m worth everything I want, plus more.
I have visions of myself at my physical best, my grown & sexy with my hilarity and my charm. I have new taste I’d love to adhere to. I’m ready to polish littlems.vvs so she can shine bright before she go flawless. Summer is prime time for my act outs. Plus, on the new shit I’m on? Bitch, please. Be ready.
It’s literal thirst trap season. Recognize my game & stay on them toes lil bae.
Mood: Killing You Hoes – Trina
You will never catch me without a set. I speak with my hands, what kind of bitch would I be not to have my shit done on the usual?
Let me break down my particulars.
Walking into a new nail shop, I request a a narrow square clear tip acrylic set. Nothing special really, perhaps even a touch outdated. I had my moment of following nail trends but I’ve abandoned them completely, I know what I like. I have a home nail shop, a stereotypical LA shop, nothing special, ‘just’ home. 🙂 I typically stay real regular with colors due to length but lately I’ve been wilding. It’s going to get wilder (read: tackier) way before it gets more tame.
I love my nails 🙂 Since I love them so, I make sure I care for my nails under the toxicity of acrylic.
– Request a light drill or no drilling to my nail beds as to reduce nail breakdown & future sensitivity. Electing to skip on drills completely will shorten your wear / make nails easier to break.
– Stretch my fills. I refuse to cut up my cuticles, and less shop trips means more savings. Plus, a nail color change (~$5) a week & a half in can maintain your cute inbetween time.
– Clean my nails specifically. Longer your nail, the more prone to debris & discoloration. Gotta stay proper. I wash my hands often, and separately soap up the undercarriage of my nail to stay bright & smooth.
– Let my nails grow. I don’t do completely new sets often, I let my nail length continue with the acrylic, to the point the tips are grown out. The length of my nail provides foundation to the acrylic without tips. Plus, I can remove the acrylic & wear my very own as I please (though it’ll never happen!).
– Stay on my biotin intake so as they grow, they’re strong enough for a nice beating ;). Hard with no sensitivity, no splitting or folding, minimal peeling and denting.
My natural nails will never look their best while I continue to get acrylic sets. Though they’re not as healthy as they could be, my nails are better off than anyone I know who wears acrylics. An acrylic set application is a damaging process by default. Drills, bonding liquids, acrylic powder, files, etc. Do not believe anyone who speaks other wise, I don’t care if they’re a nail technician or if they get $200 fills.
For ideal removal, I would soak in acrylic, file off & repeat. Softening the acrylic and gently filing or drilling is so much safer than breaking or pulling them off. In reality I yank these hoes off as needed. I never pull or break off painful nails. Natural lift has already started to occur when I remove a complete set thus not directly damaging my nail bed. Not every nail is ready to go at once, so those get corner clipped and brought off. This results in peeling off the top layer of your nail, definitely damaging and proves very harmful if done constantly)
Here’s some eye candy (and a touch of horror) for the drop.
Mood: Delirious – Vistoso Bosses
times are sour with flirts of pleasure. i’ll manage through, though discipline is definitely no sweeter. ick !!
mood: candy – cameo
I love sleep, I love sleeping, I love being sleep. Simple. It’s a break, it’s a recharge. It’s a top five necessity that I view as a luxury. I’m the chick who returns your call a quarter after noon, still moaning and stretching but alert as ever. Plus, I still stay about my money. Be jealous.Sleep is extremely personal. No two people experience rest or comfort the same way. I believe I sleep well because my sleep is planned beforehand.
Good sleep requires forethought.
- What’s your favorite unwind?
- Do you crave anything when you’re sleepy?
- What do you constantly forget before bed?
- How do you counteract restlessness?
- Who or what soothes you?
- How do you like to be awakened?
- Mood / Mental state
- Sensations / Sensory feelings
- Likes / Dislikes
Set a sleep regimen.
Under the assumption of an average, healthy day, I sleep approximately 9-12 hours. If left to my own devices, I can sleep ten straight a night. Part time, I’m an infamous napper – if I’m completely out of contact I very well may be sleep. I am medically tried and true – there’s no reason I sleep that much other than my body says I need to.
My bedroom is adapted for sleep. My bedroom walls are a signature deep hot pink, now associated with a plethora of my antics. They play a dual role in my sleep setting alongside my window treatment selection. Blackout curtains are an absolute must have. I can sleep well into the morning, not to be interrupted by sunlight. Sunlight plays a significant role in our sleep-wake cycle, calling your body to arise when the sun does. I do not conform, so I adapt. Fuck mornings. I will milk afternoon arisings as long as my life can work around a PM schedule. I cry for the day it changes.
Before going to bed I visit my bathroom. I undress, I bathe, I dental care & I exit. iSleepy. Sleepy me favors no responsibilities. I’m prone to overlook, forget or completely neglect anything more than hygiene.
I keep these right at my nightstand as means of convenience. Mostly everything is travel sized and stored in a cubby for immediate use.
- Contact case
- Makeup wipes
- Birth control and supplements
- Snacks (say something!)
- Lip Balm
I almost purely sleep naked, I always have and I will as long as I feasibly can. It’s out of physical and mental comfort. My most natural state is nude, and my sleep calls for that nature. It’s amazing for vaginal health and body confidence. Otherwise, I may dress for occasion or for weather.
I rarely need a wind down. My mood is set, my items are bedside, I’m made. I may revisit my social media outlets before starting my daily journal if I haven’t already. Otherwise, I pray, charge my phones, cozy up & knock. Issues rarely arise, but they can be rough. I deal with restlessness/inability to sleep by directly assessing the issue while staying stern.
What’s the cause?
What can I do about it?
When I’ma really take my ass to sleep?
If it’s excitement, I’ll imagine the situation in its most perfect form, accept it as law, then dream of the outcome.
If it’s an unfinished task or a feeling of incompleteness, I will up and continue when feasible.
If it’s stress, I allow time for worry and thought play, but I’ll cut the shit, end neutrally or positively and go to bed.
If it’s boredom, I’ll entertain entertainment but turn myself in at the first reminder of sleepiness.
Customization makes it desirable. Preparation makes it constant. Discipline solidifies it all.
Mood: Between the Sheets – Isley Brothers
I’m terribly excited, really.
I’ll extend this post tomorrow, as a young bitch is mentally and physically exhausted. Stay true baby.
Mood: Muny – Nicki Minaj